What I really want is to win the lottery so I can quit my job and buy all the fabrics and threads and beads and stitch all day and play djembe all night and have all the glittery things the TV tells me I should want........
Naaaaahhhhhhh, not really (although...winning the lottery......hmmmmmm).
I have a good job, sometimes stressful but not always, and I like the people I work with.
I have a comfortable home, shared with a man I love. It's not a perfect love, but then, what is that?? My home doesn't have my daughter within it, but she is flying free and making her own life, and that is a good thing.
I have my fiber art, and I have even worked up the courage to claim the label "artist."
My health is not as good as it used to be, but I still do what I want.
So what do I really want?
I want people to stop being such fear-mongerers and to stop hording resources. I want people to stop seeing other people as "other," "foreign," "bad," "less-than." I want people to stop viewing Mother Earth as something to dominate and use. I want people to have more compassion in their hearts, to see differences between each other as something to accept, and even honor. I want people to treat animals with empathy and kindness.
And I want these things for a purely selfish reason. You see, I have an over-abundance of empathy. I hurt when I see another person being hurt. I hurt when I see an animal being abused. My heart aches when I get behind those horrible chicken trucks, or the cattle trucks. And then I rage because I am powerless to stop all the uncaring, unkind, unthinking abusive things we do to each other and the earth that is our home.
But I still have hope. I hope that more people will wake up and see that we are all the same inside. I hope that more people will wake up to an awareness of the interconnected web of life that we are a part of, that what we do to another being or to our planet, we really do to ourselves.
I have channeled my hope into a goddess doll. She is currently in progress, but I will share her with you. She carries the Human World Tree. The leaves of this tree are in all the colors of the people that make up this world. And they dwell together on the branches of the World Tree in harmony. She is made from recycled jeans. I'm waiting for her to tell me what else she wants on her.
World harmony...is that so much to ask for?
Blogging along with Effy Wild.