Thursday, July 17, 2008

Sometimes I think too much

Well, I may be going back to work sooner than I want to. I sent my resume to Blue Cross for a couple of positions they have open, and they responded back already. I was kinda hoping the jobs had already been filled. :o)

The good thing is, both jobs actually sound interesting to me. The bad thing is I wanted to wait until September to go back to work. But, I happened to look on their website, and the jobs are available now. So I had a telephone screening yesterday, and I will go take the personality test thing tomorrow. If I pass that, they will interview me. I do intend to go to national seminar over labor day week. I will discuss that with them, IF I get a job offer.

But now to the thinking too much problem....I thought myself into a mini-depression because I really, really wanted to take more art classes with Megan this fall semester. I can always take an art class later, but not with my daughter. I had a blast last semester in class with her. So I got up all depressed this morning, and there was Mark, sitting on the couch. I added anger to my depression. I got all mad at Mark. I know that is an irrational thing, but there you have it. I am mad at him because I have to go back to work. I know it's not his fault, but I'm mad at him anyways.

So, in tears, all sad and mad (with Mark asking, "what's the matter? are you mad at me?," which only makes it worse - makes me want to punch him in the face), I got dressed to go take a Pace Group exercise class at the Y. The pace exercise was actually fun! You go from exercise station to station. The stations alternate a different weight machine with either a step or a kind of bouncy platform, and you only have to stay on each one 40 seconds. I really enjoyed it, and the other ladies there were discussing Jackson's mayor, and all the political, legal, ethical, and moral trouble he is in, and that was interesting in a train wreck kind of way. LOL By the time the class was over, I was sweaty and tired, and my mood was much, much better. I guess what they say about exercise being good for your mental and emotional state really is true. :o) I feel much better now.

I had a visitor in my yard the other day. I took this picture from my studio window.

Isn't he cute? I love the little wild rabbits running around here. They really are fun to watch. They make me smile, even when I think too much. :o)


katja said...

I love your bunny! Where I used to live there were bunnies *everywhere!* I miss them. Congratulations on exercising, even though you were mad & sad! That's a hard one for me. Hang in there!

Rissa said...

The rabbit is cute, but the minute my dogs saw would be VERY bad. :-( I hate that you are feeling bad. We need to make a point of stitching every day until you go back to work. I get what you mean about the classes with the daughter. I wish you could find a way to make it work.